Again, it has been a long time since I have posted and much has changed. I am unsure if the changes are good or bad, but they are drastic. As of February 3, 2021, I am no longer married after almost 27 years with Doug. This has been extremely difficult. I am trying each day to move forward. Some days are more difficult than others. The one thing that keeps me strong is knowing that I have to be strong for Logan and Izzy. They need more now than they ever have. This is a very lonely feeling. I have told very few people. Unsure why, but I am ashamed. 

I have not written in my blog in a long time. I am guessing I have not written because it seemed that life was very difficult. My marriage was falling a part which seemed to make everything else worse.
I start 2014 when the knowledge that any day a judge could sign papers I filed to end my marriage. I am plagued with the thought, did I try enough, did I show enough patience, did I honor God's words in my marriage?
I would like to think I did; however, only God knows if I did all I could. I pray this year will bring about a feeling of happiness that comes from within and not from others.

This picture is of our adventure when we got to Cozumel. Obviously, since I have not been on vacation in five years, I forgot that you were supposed to relax.

Spring 2011

This year started off great but have had a bump at the beginning of April. A blow that will not soon leave my memory or heart. But, it is time to pick up and move forward. I have been working out since November. January and Febrauary did not see much weight loss, actually none. I have been walking 4+ miles a day 5x a week. Finally, the weight is coming off. I have lost 20 pounds and have 25 more to go.
School is killing me. If I become an instructor like the Ph.D's in IDD, I will quit. They are HORRIBLE.
Logan is doing great in school and baseball.
Izzy is also doing well in school.
Doug is finally getting his wits about him and Mee Mee is helping us out a lot around the house.

2010

This has been a stressful year. It has also been a somewhat productive year.
Logan started 2nd grade and is doing great.
Izzy started kindergarten and is doing great; although she had a rough start.
I started working toward my Ph.D. and so far doing pretty well; although I had a rough start.
Doug started his own business and is doing great.
Mee Mee moved in with us and it seems to be going well.
I have been lazy this year with my weight but started a couple of days ago going back to the gym in the morning and I LOVE it. Walked 4 miles yesterday and today. I pray the weight comes off quickly.

Cranford Update

Haven't written in awhile. Things are going well for the family. Doug is finishing the renovations on the rental house so we can sell it, Logan and Izzy are doing great in school and I won't seem to work hard enough to lose the weight I gained a year and half ago before the miscarrige.
Brandy and Shelby died, Daddy Cranford died this year and we stopped going to church over the past few months.....guess all of that doesn't sound that good afterall.

School is starting

Izzy starts Faith Academy in two weeks for Prek and Logan will be attending Hutchens in 1st grade. Things are different, both wear uniforms and have a lot of supplies to bring. They both have great teachers and are excited. I worried for Izzy, being it her first year. I know she will do great, but hopes she does even better than I believe she will.
I start teaching at UA this semester and could not be more excited. The information from UA has been sketchy, so am not sure how it will go but am so excited I barely notice how confused I am.

Izzy

Izzy is doing great, growing like a weed. Is now potty trained and getting ready to start PreK at Faith Academy.
She is taking gymnastics now and is doing better than I could have imagined.