Self Sabatoge

Well things are not going well for me. Great in the Cranford house, but not for me. It has been 4 months since I lost the baby and should have lost all the weight. The ladies in the neighbhorhood have just had their babies and are losing their weight, but I still have mine. Not sure what I am doing but started binge eating again. I had lost 10 pounds got sick and went backwards. I have got to get it together and get this weight off. I have never weighted this much and it is horrible. I feel horrible. I am going to try and do better today but tomorrow is it. I have set my sight on tomorrow with no more excuses. I understand I need to deal with the feelings that I am suppressing with the food, but I have got to get it together.